— (10 word story)
— (via sadistanggirlfriend)
I should have told you how beautiful your eyes are every morning as you wake up. How they shine bright like diamonds, making me stare at you with full attraction. That eyes that blink wonderfully together. That tantalizing pair of crystals that curve every time you smile or laugh. That eyes which shed a lot of tears because me. That eyes which you promised never to look at me again.
I should have hold those hands as tight as I can, I shouldn’t have let them go. Those delicate hands, so soft they can actually make me sleep by just touching my hair strips. I should have crossed my fingers unto yours and made you feel that I’m always here for you. That I’m always willing to stay by your side through thick and thin. I should have caressed them more whenever you’re not in the mood, as to make you feel that everything will be alright as long as we’re together. I should have hold those hands more just before you let go of mine.
I should have sang songs for you. Songs that could have touched your heart before you sleep. I should have sang lullabies for you, or mellow songs, or even hard cores. Songs that you should have requested me to sing. I should have whispered melodies unto your ears, making you feel comfortable with me. I should have used my voice to complete your day, because I know that even how terrible my voice is, it could have made you happy.
I should have written poems and prose for you. I should have dedicated my writings for you because I know that that’s what you ever wanted. I should have made you my only subject, my inspiration. You’ve always been that one person beyond each words and phrases, I just didn’t say it to you. And I should have told you about it. I should have dedicated this blog to you because this is truly yours in the first place.
I should have given you my time and effort because I know that’s all you need. I should have sent you a lot of text messages and facebook chats. I should have told you a lot of funny jokes and corny pick up lines. I should have called you more often and let you know how much i miss you every second that you’re not by your side. I should have asked you to come with me to watch movies, or go to amusement parks or simply eat in fast food chains. I should have told you to come over my place, cooked food for you and cuddle with you until the sun sets. I should have made you happy by just simply being happy with you beside me.
I should have told you how much I love you, not just in words but also through actions. I should have made you feel what my heart feels for you. I should have not kept everything to myself and let my pride eats me up. I should have hugged you when you are down, and kissed you when you needed it. I should have love you more than what I did. I should have appreciated all your efforts, all your care and all your love for me. I shouldn’t have let you go. I know I’ve been so stupid. I shouldn’t have been that stupid.
If ever I’m given the chance to do all those things to you, this time, I’ll be the best girlfriend you could ever have. Please, come back."
I am not an easy person to love. Some days I will whisper how beautiful you are while planting gentle kisses all over your body. You will giggle and try to fight me off and in that moment my heart will have never felt so light.
But other days when my mind is a storm cloud threatening to explode, I will be a bundle of emotions that I cannot quite keep contained. I will be cold, distant, and you will look at me like I am not the same person you fell in love with.
I am a broken light switch. My moods flicker without anyone flipping me on and off. I wake up each morning and wonder which me you will encounter that day. I always hope it is the one who makes you want to stick around.
I am not easy to love. But what I need you to understand is that whether there is a war raging inside of my mind or I am the kind person that you adore, I will always love you.
I will love you in the morning. I will love you when you cry. I will love you when I am angry. I will love you when you’re being stubborn. I will love you when I don’t even love myself. I will love you.
I know that there will be days when you want to give up on me but I am asking you, please don’t. You see, you are the only one who has been able to settle the storm inside of me before I even realize it is surfacing.
I am not easy to love but I promise that I will always put up a fight. And I will love you no matter what."
— (via 1112pm)